today's history paper was a disaster. sucks sia. studied 3 chapters. japan, late russia and cold war. predicted that japan most likely will come out so focus more on it. cold war read through it briefing and IN THE END, cold war came out. the other two is treaty of versailles and WW2. omg. when i saw the question i was like die liaox. crap all the way lorx. no choice. ):
when home immediately after my paper.
audition! haha. played for around 1hour plus. then tired. and no mood. all because of YOU. ): decided to call xy and chat. burn time. then she wanna go bathe. and she asked me try calling you. i did. and i thought you didnt want to talk to me and cut off our line when i havent speak to you for more than three sentences. well, at least i know you still want to talk to me when you miss call back. but, the reasons you gave me for not contacting me. they're like so. unrealistic? whatever. you cant call me at night before you sleep because your house telephone got taken away by your mother. when you got back your new phone you sms your friends about studies and chalet but cant spare even one sms for me. your current phone you're holding cant be used to miss call me at night when you can miss call me just now. and you said your current phone cant sms but while we're talking you sms your classmate. your computer is spoiled and have been send to repair for six days therefore you cant online to contact me. what else did you say.. it's like a script of excuses you fabricate to defend yourself. and i know you're going to say i dont trust you. it's not that i dont. im trying to. but when i go through all the reasons you give me. i really find it hard to believe all these. yarx. to me it's crap.
why. why you can contact your friends but not me. why you can meet up with your friends but not me. why. is it because you dont want to contact me. or your mother doesnt want you to contact me. calling you didnt cheer me up one bit. i really dont know why i missed you so badly. i wanna talk to you so badly. i wonder WHY!
you told me. having handphone or no handphone makes no difference to me. fuck. it hurts so badly when you said that. what do i mean to you? am i really that.. unimportant?
whatever i am. im just trying to sound cheerful on the phone. i guess it already doesnt matter to you whether im happy or not. and i guess. you wont be spending time with me on my bday. maybe to you it's just a waste of time.
fuck you.
damn. im so upset. but luckily i still got xy. she's a great friend who's always there for me. big hugs. thanks alot. chatting with you after that and that really helps. (: will be looking forwards to spend my holiday mostly with you ba. haha.
well, im gonna make my mood better. by playing maple. haha. bye.
